a start

FIRST ATTEMPT.  JUST SOME RANDOM RAMBLINGS


I was over there while you slept 

In your neighborhood I’m not llowwed in

HOUSE BE MORE MONEY I MAKE THIS LIFETIME

Protecting you from enemies invented in your

Factificating manufacturing of fearhate

Little bits of facts stretched like the dough I knead

Left to rise into the bread of spin

NICE CRUST WITH A GOOD TOOTH

And little else but the odor of sour

Was the money that good to sell your soul

I live here now

MIGHT HAVE TO USE 2^ND AMENDMENT REMEDIES

Feeling your cross hairs

WE DIDN’T MEAN A RIFLE SCOPE

MORE LIKE THAT THING SURVEYORS USE

That’s a theodolite dipshit

WE ARE GRANTED FREEDOM OF SPEECH, YOU CANT YELL FIRE IN A CROWDED THEATER, BUT YOU CAN SAY MOST ANYTHING

That’s why I was there

Town airport on the water dashing around the oceans and seas

JUST FLY A COUPLE OF JETS WITH THE RED WHITE AND BLUE ON THE TAIL DOWN MAINSTREET

Is that what it takes to make allies

Ever see a rockeye go??  I mean a CBU-100.

247 little bundles of joy that will

Turn main street into a river of red with shredded bodies and buildings as

Banks wont talk to me either

Was there for them

Two faces they show as one hand shakes mine and the other steals

Is that what you’re paid in

Sweat stolen from my brow

Dreams ripped from a father’s heart

Was supposed to be better for you

That’s why I went

AH, THE BEACHES OF NORTHERN FRANCE IN THE LATE SPRING

Collected bodies in the sand

Life essence gone

Washed away to feed the fish

A LITTLE TO COLD FOR SWIMMING, BUT WALK THE BEACH AND SEE ALL THE INTERESTING THINGS THE STORMS WASH ASHORE

They popped up and floated ashore for weeks.

Remains of life

Covered by the same uniform I wear

I DON’T CARE WHAT UNIFORM IT HAS ON

YOU AINT BURYING NO NIGGER SAILOR IN THIS CEMETARY

He was a guy in our group

Doing his job and he slipped and fell and drown

You cried and your hands

Held me on your lap as we read the comics

You dapper in robe with goatee and pipe

Me in diaper and shirt

Trembled in angerfearshame

They stole the dream from you

DON’T WANT YOU JERKING OFF GAS PUMPS THE REST OF YOUR LIFE

Were you upset when you heard I make car parts

Dream gone log ago in a mind that fragments and scatters

Jumping from this page to splitting wood to pork or beef for this weeks meal

AND THEN HE SAID I’M KINDA SCATTERBRAINED BUT MY CONDITION HAS A NAME

ADD

Numbers left to right for speed to approximate

Radcon math you called it

To use when the glowing rocks escape containment

Quick find out how many alphas we have breathed before our masks were tight and our suits on

OUTFIT LIKE THAT BOY, ONLY THING YOU’RE MISSING IS THE CHAQUITA SEAL

To go look

Hoping it’s a drill and not a micro chernobyl 500 feet from where I

Sleep that brought the dream those years

COLOR AND SOUND SO VIVID ITS LIKE YOU’RE THERE

My water broke we need to go

Its seven weeks early I say

Baby’s not crying as they cut the cord

Separated from her forever

Baby rushed out one door

Me rushed out a different one

Put her under deep, we’ve got a mess

I felt his spirit go home

Please watch over dear Jesus my savior

And helped carry the tiny white box filled with what was left

To a hole in the cold ground

Carefully edited and presented for your viewing pleasure

Glad it was a drill

K19 widowmaker wasn’t out yet

Would I be that heroic if asked

Go contain the stones that glow

Wearing only a paper suit

Not behind a lead wall covering the mess with layers of concrete and lead

Cells killed and scrambled by rays you cannot see

Fought the sleep

If I’m awake and with others and talk and work till I fall down

The dream was only for me

He wont take it, you must give it to HIM

Kept my soul toward the dark side

He took the dream given and placed with the ones like it in the pit of hell

New dream

Waking

He’s supposed to still be deep under

Sharp pain is this how it felt my savior when the blade entered your broken body hanging on the tree

Hold still we got to put the tube where it needs to be

By my heart so the spilled life essence can drain from the hole in my side

Mine thru a tube to a bag in a box I carry

Did the stones that glow twist and scramble the cells in my chest

Doc I thought it was a bug bite

Got the cat scan back, it’s a lump

Special bits of glowing stones into the vein of my arm

A bone scan should tell us what we need

Mooning evening traffic in backless gown

Opened my eyes while the scanner was over me

Is this what it looks like before they seal the top of your tomb

It’s a lump and it’s growing

Arm is sore from where they leaned their elbows to get leverage to use the rib cutter

Kinda like what you use to trim your dog’s toenails

Sweet lord, Im sorry if this is how it felt

You hanging there for me

Razor sharp steel fighting its way thru flesh

Why is my arm on fire

Carefully missing my heart

6000 ten day tooth aches condensed to 10 seconds

fought against the straps

oh fudge

am I such a wimp to react like this

im sorry blessed savior

please protect me and keep me safe

you’d feel safer with a gun

weight of a colt commander on my waist or just the source of another dream

exhale completely

deep breath

let ½ out/pulse calm eyes fixed

pip and vee aligned on center mass all humanity gone from you once you targeted me

squeeze gently don’t pull

3 times before your next breath

this aint tv no halt or ill shoot or drop the gun

just the first click of the hammer before your chest looks like gary Gilmores seconds after lets do it